Pre-op

As I walked into the Labor and Delivery unit at Gwinnett Medical this afternoon for my pre-op, it suddenly hit me like a ton of BRICKS that I am going to give birth to another human being. Yes, people, I am going to have another baby and I know that Ive known this for a whole nine months but for some reason it all became reality for me just today. After two and a half hours of a million questions, having blood drawn, and signing a kazillion papers (which including signing my life away) I felt all of the blood draining from my face, started sweating, and realized my eyes were totally stuck on the baby bed thingy that they put the baby in when its born. The nurse was very nice and gave me WAY too much information to process at one time....you know, especially since I was still allowing my brain to process the fact that I really am having a baby.

You know, I had this vision of my baby girl's delivery and how exciting it was gonna be to have my husband and two little boys in the room to "get to know one another" for the first few minutes while family and friends waited outside for us to "have our moment". Well, wouldn't you know, the hospital has changed their visiting policy *at this time* due to the FRIGGIN SWINE FLU. NOONE UNDER 18 IS ALLOWED IN THE HOSPITAL. NOONE. NOT. EVEN.SIBLINGS.OF.THE.NEWBORN.INFANT. WHHHHAATTTTTT?????!!!!! So, now not only will the boys have to wait until at least MONDAY to meet their new sister, I am going to be all upset and crying because I miss my kids. Yes, Im that mommy. Im the mommy who misses her kids while they are at school for 8 hrs much less three days away.

Then there's this amniocentesis. Yes, I am having it tomorrow at 12:00 to determine FLM (fetal lung maturity) I am so anxious for this report since it will determine whether I deliver this Friday or the next Friday. It's sorta like winning the lottery and they tell you that you have to wait another week before you can collect your money...uh huh...see what I mean?? It sucks. Of course, I do not want Ansley to have breathing problems what mother would want that for their baby?? It's hard to explain but all I can say is that I am ready. I hope she is too. Oh, not to mention that Im having a hard time keeping the ONE PAIR OF MATERNITY PANTS that I own clean. Ive been washing them every night...its getting annoying but Im not buying anymore maternity pants. EVER. EVER. EVER.